sitting back and enjoying the vizzle.
you know... this has been a big week. well, two weeks really. god glorifying! and at the same time... i would say self discovering. i've really been thinking through my life and what i'm doing with it. and i came to the conclusion that i wasn't living life.
of course, to some extent. this makes no sense. you may say, "of course you were living life! krames, that makes no sense, eh!" but, when i say live life i don't mean breathing and blinking. i mean it in the most important senses of the word. what is life? let's take this down to the fundamental core! what is life? life is one gigantic worship service! am i right? or, at least, that's what it should be; though, that's not what we make out of it. the purpose of life is to glorify and make the greater of god through our time on this earth. what does that entail?... until two saturday's ago... i don't think i could have told you. there is the first and foremost answer, "complete glorification of god." that is understood and hopefully basic in meaning completely unattainable in reality. i agree with that, but how is that done? some say by doing good works and accrediting them to god and blessing him for the ability. that's a good way to glorify god. some say by reading his word constantly and religiously (literally), and taking in all that the lord has to say, and turning from the sin you have addressed. that's good too, that's incredible and awesome! but one thing that i never really hear often was that of... i guess i could put it as strife. i mean, that's life as we know it. im not saying that it's something that should be striven for, but i am saying that it's something that should be embraced. because god uses it to do great things.
this isnt to say that i never hear about it. that's not true at all. i hear many times of "enjoying the process of hard work" and "embracing trials". and maybe, it's in it's rightful place in my leaders and friends hearts. but, it wasn't in mine. i didn't find joy in my trials and i sure wasn't enjoying the process of hard work. i'm sure most of the people who read this (if anyone does anymore) have the same problem. i came to the conclusion on saturday that i finally know what that means for me to live life for god. i was very confused about it, though, so many things were going through my mind it wasn't funny. after many talks and much thought and meditation. i came to the conclusion that... i am not who i want to be on this earth. i am a person who runs and cries from trials. i am a person who, regardless the benefits and glorification, will always take the easy road. always. it's not a debate, really, it's a fact.
i want to leave a legacy on this earth. not selfishly or self pleasing. but, i want it to glorify god, and i want it to be true! something like "kramer went in-through not around". i chose that sentence because that's what's been on my heart. i've always known i was destined to do missions work. i've always had a heart for it, since i can remember. i want to deal with the down-trodden and struggling, both physically and spiritually. people who have nothing to their name but the clothes on their back and the children on their floor weeping from hunger pains or HIV. and not even just those that are that extremely suffering. the people i have been associating myself lately are those who are struggling because they think they have to carry this burden of life by themselves, the lonely. people who have ugly secrets and ugly masks to cover them up. i've been chatting with anyone i can lately. with the immoral, and the disbelieving. the self proclaiming and the bruised in the gutter; and a lot of these people do or have done drugs. but, you know what?... those are the kind of people we should be with. the local church has a major, major part to play in the "christian's" life, for sure! but we are to be associating ourselves with those that have no hope for themselves. and those that think that they don't count for this reason or that. isnt that what jesus did? he saved prostitutes! he walked through, not around samaria... and that's life to me. people are always taking this one verse in the wrong way, you know the one that goes, "god judges those outside. purge the evil person from among you." (rom. 5:13) i think people take that completely out of context! he's saying purge those who are falsely calling themselves christians from you! i could think of no greater life than dedicating your life to those who have none. and in turn glorifying god. i feel so honored that god has put this desire in my heart. you know... to get in to heaven, it isn't about what you've done. but you have a role on this earth. and what you do does affect everything and everyone around you. this life is interactive not passive! and just to sit back and enjoy the view is completely selfish! and i am ashamed that that has defined my life for 15 years. i've made up my mind to live! not to watch and not to just support. but to really live this life that god has given to us! and for me, ironically, that means being with those who aren't living. (figuratively speaking)
i also had an amazing talk with my dad about... everything imaginable, (at this great restaurant in redmond called "matt's" try it! i know you'll love it! *fake smile*) but we talked a lot about the importance of hard work. this is not a subject that i am all too familiar with. because of the fact that i turn from it when it is presented to me. but, i feel very convicted now to try my hardest in everything so that i can praise god through it. i wanna be familiar with that feeling you get after a long days work in the yard, with callouses on your hands and sweat on your brow, with contentment in your heart, and responsibility on your mind. i long for that feeling for the first time. it's amazing! but, keep praying for me! i long for each one of your prayers. thank you brothers and sisters for being the channel of my thoughts tonight. amen.
oh, and here's a little somethin extra comin your way! a stroll down memory lane. im in the back with the black hat and ridiculously big sunglasses.
of course, to some extent. this makes no sense. you may say, "of course you were living life! krames, that makes no sense, eh!" but, when i say live life i don't mean breathing and blinking. i mean it in the most important senses of the word. what is life? let's take this down to the fundamental core! what is life? life is one gigantic worship service! am i right? or, at least, that's what it should be; though, that's not what we make out of it. the purpose of life is to glorify and make the greater of god through our time on this earth. what does that entail?... until two saturday's ago... i don't think i could have told you. there is the first and foremost answer, "complete glorification of god." that is understood and hopefully basic in meaning completely unattainable in reality. i agree with that, but how is that done? some say by doing good works and accrediting them to god and blessing him for the ability. that's a good way to glorify god. some say by reading his word constantly and religiously (literally), and taking in all that the lord has to say, and turning from the sin you have addressed. that's good too, that's incredible and awesome! but one thing that i never really hear often was that of... i guess i could put it as strife. i mean, that's life as we know it. im not saying that it's something that should be striven for, but i am saying that it's something that should be embraced. because god uses it to do great things.
this isnt to say that i never hear about it. that's not true at all. i hear many times of "enjoying the process of hard work" and "embracing trials". and maybe, it's in it's rightful place in my leaders and friends hearts. but, it wasn't in mine. i didn't find joy in my trials and i sure wasn't enjoying the process of hard work. i'm sure most of the people who read this (if anyone does anymore) have the same problem. i came to the conclusion on saturday that i finally know what that means for me to live life for god. i was very confused about it, though, so many things were going through my mind it wasn't funny. after many talks and much thought and meditation. i came to the conclusion that... i am not who i want to be on this earth. i am a person who runs and cries from trials. i am a person who, regardless the benefits and glorification, will always take the easy road. always. it's not a debate, really, it's a fact.
i want to leave a legacy on this earth. not selfishly or self pleasing. but, i want it to glorify god, and i want it to be true! something like "kramer went in-through not around". i chose that sentence because that's what's been on my heart. i've always known i was destined to do missions work. i've always had a heart for it, since i can remember. i want to deal with the down-trodden and struggling, both physically and spiritually. people who have nothing to their name but the clothes on their back and the children on their floor weeping from hunger pains or HIV. and not even just those that are that extremely suffering. the people i have been associating myself lately are those who are struggling because they think they have to carry this burden of life by themselves, the lonely. people who have ugly secrets and ugly masks to cover them up. i've been chatting with anyone i can lately. with the immoral, and the disbelieving. the self proclaiming and the bruised in the gutter; and a lot of these people do or have done drugs. but, you know what?... those are the kind of people we should be with. the local church has a major, major part to play in the "christian's" life, for sure! but we are to be associating ourselves with those that have no hope for themselves. and those that think that they don't count for this reason or that. isnt that what jesus did? he saved prostitutes! he walked through, not around samaria... and that's life to me. people are always taking this one verse in the wrong way, you know the one that goes, "god judges those outside. purge the evil person from among you." (rom. 5:13) i think people take that completely out of context! he's saying purge those who are falsely calling themselves christians from you! i could think of no greater life than dedicating your life to those who have none. and in turn glorifying god. i feel so honored that god has put this desire in my heart. you know... to get in to heaven, it isn't about what you've done. but you have a role on this earth. and what you do does affect everything and everyone around you. this life is interactive not passive! and just to sit back and enjoy the view is completely selfish! and i am ashamed that that has defined my life for 15 years. i've made up my mind to live! not to watch and not to just support. but to really live this life that god has given to us! and for me, ironically, that means being with those who aren't living. (figuratively speaking)
i also had an amazing talk with my dad about... everything imaginable, (at this great restaurant in redmond called "matt's" try it! i know you'll love it! *fake smile*) but we talked a lot about the importance of hard work. this is not a subject that i am all too familiar with. because of the fact that i turn from it when it is presented to me. but, i feel very convicted now to try my hardest in everything so that i can praise god through it. i wanna be familiar with that feeling you get after a long days work in the yard, with callouses on your hands and sweat on your brow, with contentment in your heart, and responsibility on your mind. i long for that feeling for the first time. it's amazing! but, keep praying for me! i long for each one of your prayers. thank you brothers and sisters for being the channel of my thoughts tonight. amen.
oh, and here's a little somethin extra comin your way! a stroll down memory lane. im in the back with the black hat and ridiculously big sunglasses.
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