Mockingbird

sitting back and enjoying the vizzle.

2007-02-05T18:27:00.000-08:00

you know... this has been a big week. well, two weeks really. god glorifying! and at the same time... i would say self discovering. i've really been thinking through my life and what i'm doing with it. and i came to the conclusion that i wasn't living life.

of course, to some extent. this makes no sense. you may say, "of course you were living life! krames, that makes no sense, eh!" but, when i say live life i don't mean breathing and blinking. i mean it in the most important senses of the word. what is life? let's take this down to the fundamental core! what is life? life is one gigantic worship service! am i right? or, at least, that's what it should be; though, that's not what we make out of it. the purpose of life is to glorify and make the greater of god through our time on this earth. what does that entail?... until two saturday's ago... i don't think i could have told you. there is the first and foremost answer, "complete glorification of god." that is understood and hopefully basic in meaning completely unattainable in reality. i agree with that, but how is that done? some say by doing good works and accrediting them to god and blessing him for the ability. that's a good way to glorify god. some say by reading his word constantly and religiously (literally), and taking in all that the lord has to say, and turning from the sin you have addressed. that's good too, that's incredible and awesome! but one thing that i never really hear often was that of... i guess i could put it as strife. i mean, that's life as we know it. im not saying that it's something that should be striven for, but i am saying that it's something that should be embraced. because god uses it to do great things.

this isnt to say that i never hear about it. that's not true at all. i hear many times of "enjoying the process of hard work" and "embracing trials". and maybe, it's in it's rightful place in my leaders and friends hearts. but, it wasn't in mine. i didn't find joy in my trials and i sure wasn't enjoying the process of hard work. i'm sure most of the people who read this (if anyone does anymore) have the same problem. i came to the conclusion on saturday that i finally know what that means for me to live life for god. i was very confused about it, though, so many things were going through my mind it wasn't funny. after many talks and much thought and meditation. i came to the conclusion that... i am not who i want to be on this earth. i am a person who runs and cries from trials. i am a person who, regardless the benefits and glorification, will always take the easy road. always. it's not a debate, really, it's a fact.

i want to leave a legacy on this earth. not selfishly or self pleasing. but, i want it to glorify god, and i want it to be true! something like "kramer went in-through not around". i chose that sentence because that's what's been on my heart. i've always known i was destined to do missions work. i've always had a heart for it, since i can remember. i want to deal with the down-trodden and struggling, both physically and spiritually. people who have nothing to their name but the clothes on their back and the children on their floor weeping from hunger pains or HIV. and not even just those that are that extremely suffering. the people i have been associating myself lately are those who are struggling because they think they have to carry this burden of life by themselves, the lonely. people who have ugly secrets and ugly masks to cover them up. i've been chatting with anyone i can lately. with the immoral, and the disbelieving. the self proclaiming and the bruised in the gutter; and a lot of these people do or have done drugs. but, you know what?... those are the kind of people we should be with. the local church has a major, major part to play in the "christian's" life, for sure! but we are to be associating ourselves with those that have no hope for themselves. and those that think that they don't count for this reason or that. isnt that what jesus did? he saved prostitutes! he walked through, not around samaria... and that's life to me. people are always taking this one verse in the wrong way, you know the one that goes, "god judges those outside. purge the evil person from among you." (rom. 5:13) i think people take that completely out of context! he's saying purge those who are falsely calling themselves christians from you! i could think of no greater life than dedicating your life to those who have none. and in turn glorifying god. i feel so honored that god has put this desire in my heart. you know... to get in to heaven, it isn't about what you've done. but you have a role on this earth. and what you do does affect everything and everyone around you. this life is interactive not passive! and just to sit back and enjoy the view is completely selfish! and i am ashamed that that has defined my life for 15 years. i've made up my mind to live! not to watch and not to just support. but to really live this life that god has given to us! and for me, ironically, that means being with those who aren't living. (figuratively speaking)

i also had an amazing talk with my dad about... everything imaginable, (at this great restaurant in redmond called "matt's" try it! i know you'll love it! *fake smile*) but we talked a lot about the importance of hard work. this is not a subject that i am all too familiar with. because of the fact that i turn from it when it is presented to me. but, i feel very convicted now to try my hardest in everything so that i can praise god through it. i wanna be familiar with that feeling you get after a long days work in the yard, with callouses on your hands and sweat on your brow, with contentment in your heart, and responsibility on your mind. i long for that feeling for the first time. it's amazing! but, keep praying for me! i long for each one of your prayers. thank you brothers and sisters for being the channel of my thoughts tonight. amen.

oh, and here's a little somethin extra comin your way! a stroll down memory lane. im in the back with the black hat and ridiculously big sunglasses.

BLOG

2006-11-03T19:34:00.000-08:00

it's been awhile. two things i need to share. for reason of importance, or non-importance i should say, i'm going to start with two. two... for some reason i posted my last post twice, sorry about that (if anyone ever checks this blog anymore anyway). one... school is bleedin flyin! its rocketeering man! it's goin pretty fast, and im happy to say that i am starting to meet some pretty awesome individs. so, just for you guys who knew i was having troubles in this... category... be at ease oh child of God. so, i just thought that i would post a quick or not so quick poem, and maybe just the music that ive been listening to lately again. i dunno, it sounds like fun to me, eh? ok, so for sake of consistency, let's do the second one first. the shtuff that i have been listening to lately:

- joni mitchell - blue
- tom waits - the early years: vol II
- paul simon - paul simon
- paul simon - graceland
- my morning jacket - z
- my morning jacket - it still moves
- the long winters - ultimatum ep
- elliot smith - from a basement on the hill
- yo la tengo - i am not afraid of you and i will beat you
- devendra banhart - rejoicing in the hands
- caetano veloso - the best of caetano veloso

and there are others... but thats the brunt of the storm... ok, so poem time!! fun fun!

this crazy scene

he sells and buys, he's not living, dying
he only makes enough to pay his demons
if you asked him he would say he has his reasons
his arms are cold and his heart is freezing

his dad just died from cancer of the lungs
he spent too many days taking drags
and too few days acting like his dad
his last words were. "you were all i had."

life gets sticky sometimes around the middle
sometimes things are not as they seem
he spends most his day scratching and blowing steam
his mind is rotting and his eyes tend to bleed

this thing is so cheap and it is so troublesome
no matter where you put it, life gets tougher
life starts to fall away and your face gets uglier
at three times the kick and three times the suffer

i watched a movie on meth the other day, and i wrote this during the movie. its not my best. but it kinda just expresses my thoughts and feelings. its really horrifying! the power of meth, and it's popularity. its disgusting. later y'all.

Music Choice

2006-10-06T23:38:00.001-07:00

Just as a blog idea, I decided to list off the music that has been influencing my writing and music style lately. Also, just my favorites as of late. (Not in any partic order)

- Devendra Banhart - Rejoicing in the Hands
- Feist - Open Season
- The Kings of Convenience - Riot on an Empty Street
- Danielson - Ships
- Tyler James - An EP
- Beirut - Gulag Orkestar
- Animal Collective - Feels
- Chad VanGaalen - Infiniheart
- Derek Webb - Mockingbird
- Andrew Osenga - After the Garden
- Flotation Toy Warning - Bluffer's Guide to the Flight Deck
- The Innocence Mission - Small Planes
- Sufjan Stevens - Greetings From Michigan
- Teitur - Poetry and Aeroplanes

Music Choice

2006-10-06T23:38:00.000-07:00

Winter Chills

2006-08-11T00:11:00.000-07:00

Winter Chills

The Chills are dead cold against my spine
I feel the icy hand of winter across my face
The frost covers the once gold meadows and the lofty pines
The white wonderland always stops me dead in my place
This scape is too beautiful for my words, but not for my time

The winter snow holds my black white heart
Just looking at it shows my Lord's amazing love
And once glance can tell any fool that God inspires art
The snow might spawn from the clouds, but it comes from above
It takes men days to realize beauty, just because it isn't displayed in charts
I can say one thing, watching my Father's brush, I can't get enough

That is just a random poem to fill space. I've been missing the snow and cold weather lovin' lately, so, I thought I would post it. It had been too long anyway.

Yet Another Poem

2006-07-18T20:12:00.000-07:00

So, I'm thinking about turning this whole blog into a... "sanctuary" for my poems. But this is one that I like a lot, it's called "Smokey".

Smokey

I am the ever unfaithful
I am the jealous begger
I am the forsaken conscience
I am the not- so graceful

Smoke rises from my tears
Sinful reasons perhaps
Any different would abolish all my fears
It won't change until I divinely collapse

I give my heart to the convenience of man
I sell my blood to the evil intent
I kill to make a name for myself
And I feed off breaking others plans

Don't trust a man like me
Pride clouds my judgement
Smokey is the man who isn't blind but can't see
But I'll still waste my time with this tangent

I can't trust that which I cannot see
I won't support that which doesn't profit me
I will not be the victim of something life saving
I'll be glad to sail and sink my own ship

I won't sign up for anything faith related
I won't help others that have more than me
I won't agree that I was lovingly created
And I don't think that there is a saving king

So to put it all simply
Considering all my beliefs
If you ask my to follow you
I will follow You blindly

Long Time No Postage?

2006-07-14T05:51:00.000-07:00

All right, so I admit that I have been anything but faithful to keep up my blog. And I must apologize to only one person for this horrible travesty, and that is Tony, for he is such a faithful warrior. But the only thing I could think about doing for a blog would be a poem. And so, I was thinking about which poem I should post, or if I should do more than one or whatever... And I came to the decision that I would use this one. It's called "I Default Every Morning To A Dull Heart". I got this from Sean, and I thought it had a certain... poetic beauty to it. It just sounds like it belongs in a song, which I am currently working on. But this poem is about how basically every single morning we wake up tired spiritually, and we are not prepared to fight the daily trials, and our mind is not in the spiritual mode; whether that would be submissive, teachable, but especially its out dull love of God every morning (Or at least mine). Even though we might be tired, sin is never sleeping, and it is never tired. So, I thought that I would just do a quickwrite about this. Here it is.

I Default Every Morning To A Dull Heart

Obnoxious yelps and screams
The only sound that wakes me in the daybreak
My morning consists of head bang and faith shake
My love for the Almighty in the early hours...
Has nothing to do with enthusiasm or glee
The headline for this morning, "Everyone, Take A Look At Me"

For you see,
I default every morning to a dull heart
My faith is breeched by the sin that creeps
And my love is shattered into shards of glass
All I need is a few hours, just a few, to get the juices flowing
To get the air circulating and the motor going
To make my love for You shine like the heavens burst open with stars
To get my discipline stronger than a rock and rougher than sand
To make my example as tasty and sweet as a lemonade stand

My love for You in the morning is a shame and a disgrace
But Your love never sleeps, and neither does your grace
Nor does sin and its evil band of followers
They don't even give you time to take a shower
Prepare my heart for my biggest trials, the ones that wake early
The ones that wake me, and make me feel selfish and dirty
Give me the strength to wake up to Your beautiful frangrance Lord
The one that filled the temples and the one plays the chords

Your grace can sustain me, and your love can contain me
I pray now Lord that my heart would be ready for the sin in the morning
Let me be submissive, and give me the humility to hand it all to You
So that You can make my paths straight for the payments that are due
Let my prayer be as a flower among the thorns
Bang the drums and sound the horns
I will continue with you on this that you have led me, this journey
And surely my heart will be solid and my love will gleaming...
For the next tempting morning.

My Baptism Wrap-up

2006-03-26T21:11:00.000-08:00

I'm not going to go into how sorry I feel that I haven't blogged in a long time, just know that I am sorry for the totally unrighteous... unblogging.

But I was just planning on going over my baptism speech, because when I was up ther in front of the congregation... it was kinda just a blur, so. There are many things that I wanted to share that I forgot two weeks ago, so here it is. (Oh, and keep in mind that during the baptism, I didnt actually read my paper, so it'll sound totally new... most likely.)

I was born into a Christian home, it was a pretty respectful and a very fun house to live in. And I had always pretended that I was saved, mostly up until the 5^th grade, because this is when I left Grace Academy for public school. And about this time, I was NOT pretending to be a Christian, well, at school I wasn’t. I was swearing left and right, up and down, and I don’t think that I once even thought of changing my ways, because it was too much fun to say everything my lips wanted to say and to do everything I wanted to do. I was missing a lot of school, I was faking sicknesses all the time. And this continued like for about a year, until finally my sin was revealed, and I had nothing to hide anymore, and I knew that I couldn’t just keep on going, I had had enough, I was just crying and praying all that night, mainly because I felt heart broken for betraying the God who created me and loves me to this day. God rescued me big time. That’s about the time when I got saved and dedicated my life to Christ and submitted my heart to His will, about the age of 12. I still struggle with those things today though of course, a lot of the time to the point of tears, it’s a battle daily to keep my eyes on things that are pure and of the Lord, but the Lord is faithful to keep me straight and focused. And that never ceases to blow me away! But, so these last couple of years, the years in which I have been in God’s service, I have not been faithful to spread the word, or to keep my brothers and sisters in Christ accountable. And I know that I haven’t set a Christ-like example. But I think that since I have joined my small group, the Wentling-Martin group, I have been a lot more dedicated to spending time in the Word, and I have been challenged to share the gospel more. I have been growing so much under the teaching of Sean, and the leadership of Curtis and Jesse. I just wanted to say that I love you guys, and I don’t think that I can ever thank my God enough for some of things that you have done in my life. And the reason that I'm being baptized tonight is because it IS a commandment of God, that all believers and followers of Christ Jesus be baptized, and so that I can have accountability among the church body, that is something that will most definately keep me in line.

But, before I end this tonight, I would like to go into greater detail of those people that have been crucial in my spiritual growth. First of all, the person that challenges me daily and has been my constant listener and giver of advice, and that is Rebecca Giordano. Becs, God has used me in so many ways, its not even funny. When I have troubles, and I take them to you, you are ready and listening with the Bible in your hand telling me what I should do or how I should act based on scritpure, and that quality is hard to find in a firl (woman) of your age. I love you Becs, you're the best sister I have ever had!!! My brother Tony, the great... keeper in line. (?) He is always there to keep me in check and make sure that I am doing whats right by God's standards. Love ya man!! My mom, That says it all right there! If any of you know my mom, you know that she has the biggest heart for serving, its amazing have her as a mom, she sets such an example, love you mom. and then then there is: Dave Z, Dave G, and Nathaniel Lugg, you guys are the absolute coolest people of all time!!!

Baptism

Hear the thumps,

My heart beats.

It matches the goose bumps,

And the cold nervous feet.

What will they think?

When they hear what I’ve done.

My sins displayed in red,

As bright as the sun.

But I need not fear,

Or tremble or cry.

Because I’m in the arms,

Of my Lord of mercy and light.

My God my God,

Why hast thou accepted me?

This bag of hate and lust.

Weak in heart and faith of frailty.

But who am I to question,

Your perfect will?

In which the love You have shown me,

The love You show me still.

And now Abba tonight,

Just one more prayer!

Give me the words to speak,

And the experiences to share.

And let my brothers,

Learn from my sin.

That they might not

Have the same hate within.

Prepare my heart O’ Lord!

For the coming of Christ.

Because I will not be home,

Until I bathe in Your light.

Last day in the happiest place on earth?

2006-03-05T21:50:00.000-08:00

Yes it is, the sad departure tomorrow. The long walk, the skip to the lou... The death defying leap of faith to Washington, the land of contrast. I don't know whether to cry, or go bowling out of happiness! I actually though, am pretty happy to go home, to go to my school, sleep in my bed, see my friends. I am just looking forward to it very much, so if you are reading this, and you're from WA, I can't wait to see you! Even if you thought that I didn't like you! I do!

But seriously, we had some fun here, going to Disneyland with Dave Zimmer and Pastor Zimmer, it was lot's of fun. Trying out the restaurants that I have loved since I was 5. Yeah, altogether, it was a very enjoyable vaca. I wish that my mom could have been there though, that was a big bummer, I love going to Disneyland with her, she's too cool. So, yeah it has been a fun week. Now the only smoking thing that I have to do is catch up on my homework... Yeah, that should be fun... But I'm not complaining, I'm just short term whining, there's a difference...

Ok, so I'm going to get off so that Tony can get on and blog about who knows what! No I kid, I kid!

Ashamed of the Creator

2006-02-26T00:23:00.000-08:00

Every once in awhile, I get into a mood, where I am embarrassed of my God. When I do this, I know that I'm acting like a fool, but I keep on going with it, and if someone calls me on it... duck and cover! This is the very thought that literally wakes me up at night. I, Kramer Patrick Kevin, the... O so wise and brilliant man of himself, does not need a God who loves even those who killed His one and only son. Yea, I don't need none of that, I've got enough things to worry about, I don't need to always be worrying about praising some God and glorifying Him, all I need to do is make sure that I... am... good! Yep, too often do I have this mindset. Do you ever get in those times where you think, you think, that you are tempting God? "O yea God, what are you going to do if I just cuss out that guy?"; "What are you going to do to me if I just totally go along with all the gross, sick remarks that the cool guys make? Huh? What are you going to do?" Then once nothing has happened (at least, once I think nothing has happened) I say to myself, "See, I can do it." And the thing that always kills me, when I think about it in the long run... is that I actually believe myself. Do you ever do that? Is not that guilt one of the strongest feelings that you have ever felt? The feeling is almost as powerful as when you are so on fire for God that you just break out into song without even meaning to, when you break out into worship because you are so in love with God, that you can't keep it in. Almost as powerful. When I remember that I betrayed the pure spotless lamb, that I killed Jesus Christ, my sin kept Him on that "judgment tree." I really don't know how I sleep at night. I can only imagine how Judas Iscariot felt. But then when I think, that Christ hung on the cross for me, I have mixed feelings, you know? Of course I am overwhelmed and overjoyed that Christ sacrificed Himself for ME, I just don't know what to do, I'm so happy. But then when it dawns on me what I had just done, some of my thoughts, the things that are in the deep, dark corners of my mind. I become very grieved. I don't know, I get the feeling that none of my sin is forgiven. This is of course is because I am not trusting God, but I feel so ugly and weighted, that I just don't see how any thing, any one, or even any God could forgive me of some of things that I have done. Of course, you should know, that I do fully believe that my sins are forgiven, but me, the uber-sinner of the century, I of course doubt. I doubt that which I witness every day, I doubt the love that I am shown every second of this lifetime.

And on another note, but the same principal, is that I doubt my sin. I doubt my sin, which is clearly marked all over my face, and all over my heart. Derek Webb says: "Take joy in the fact not that your sins are not real but that they are real and that your Savior is real." I convince myself that my sins aren't real a lot of the time, I think of ways around them, and I think of ways not to think about them, and I try my absolute hardest to make sure that no one knows the true me, the sinful me. And then I realize that my sins are real, and my Savior is alive and real, just like Derek Webb said. And then he goes on to say, "IÂll never tire of hearing this myself because by the time I go to sleep tonight IÂm not going to believe it again. IÂm going to be thinking of ways to hide my sin from people in hope they might like me, or something." Which is completely true. It's usually in a matter of hours, or even minutes for me. To make a long story short, I doubt my sins. Those of you who are wondering, "Why is he telling us this? We already know this, because we all do it. So why is he doing this?" Well, let me ask you a question, when was the last time you realized it? When was the last time that you sat and thought about how you hide your sin? If it was a matter of days agcongratulationsons! I am very excited for you! But if it's been a matter of months, or years... What do you think needs to happen? Just remember... that our God, the God of light, majesty, and you, is real, and your sins are real! And you don't need to be convincing yourself everyday that you sin less than you actually do, because you know what? God's going to love you all the same, He is immutable, and all-loving. That's all we need to remember.

Notes:

Derek Webb:
"Take joy in the fact not that your sins are not real but that they are real and that your Savior is real. I cannot tell you this enough times in hopes that any of us, one of us, even me might believe this. IÂll never tire of saying this to people! IÂll never tire of hearing this myself because by the time I go to sleep tonight IÂm not going to believe it again. IÂm going to be thinking of ways to hide my sin from people in hope they might like me, or something."

Verses of note:
"Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned." -Romans 5:12

"Being then made free from sin, ye became the servants of righteousness." -Romans 6:18
"We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin." -Romans 7:14

"In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent His only Son into the world, so that we might live through Him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins." 1 John 4:9-10

"My God, my God, why hast thou accepted me?"

2006-02-23T17:14:00.000-08:00

This week, I have been sinning like crazy! I just keep going! I am a sinning pro, neigh, expert. As we all are by now. Well, I suppose that I may not have sinned any more this week than I had in the previous multitudes of weeks that make up my life, but I think this week, I was just awful at hiding it... Perhaps. In a way, this has been a blessing, I have learned some things this week, and now the real question is, "How do I continue to improve on these things that I have learned?"and "How will I make my body a slave to my mind?" Well, there are some obvious things to do, and even though they might be obvious, they are also the best things to do. For example, reading my Bible every single second that I possibly can, so that I might be more like Christ. Along with that I need to be praying diligently giving all I have on my plate to God, everything! But, there are also many ways that Christians (like me) don't even consider doing because I'm too smoking lazy to do them. Like meditating, or going out into the woods, or to a park, or anywhere for that matter just to catch a glimpse of God' wonder, and His beauty. These words are like "buzz" buttons to me. Most of the time, I don't want anything to do with them, you know why? It's because "we always do what we want to" and if you are not in the Scriptures, and if you are not walking faithfully and completely in Christ, then where do you think you would get the desire to do things that actually do those kinds of things? I mean, I know I didn't ever want to do things like that, I just want to play along a lot of the time. But now, since I have been in the Bible, meditating, I have been so longing for that, just to sit back, relax, and enjoy the fact that God has everything that I need, and to just watch the birdies fly by... To take in some of His majesty for a change, instead of digging up ways to make myself more "majestic."

Speaking of meditating though, you know what I think that one of the greatest feelings ever is? Probably not, I mean there are so many, but, I think that one of the best feelings is when you are just sitting down for your devotions, and the first verse you read makes you feel like that's all you need to read right now. It doesn't bring me pleasure because it means that I don't have to read my Bible or any shallow thing like that, but it brings me pleasure, because it's a sign that the Holy Spirit is working in my heart, and that is a big relief for me. Sometimes, when I have fallen away from God, I get the thought that maybe I'm not saved, when I stop and think about the things that I have done to others, or for the matter the things that I haven't done for others, it makes me seriously question my faith. I'm sure that we all feel this, but I just have a feeling deep down inside of me that I just need to talk about it with you, my family in Christ, so that you guys can keep me accountable. I beg you to do this, pray for me, because like Pastor Zimmer says, "I covet your prayers." I really do.

Also, I would like to say thank you to all the ladies in the Bone/Sarr/Abbott small group, and Sk for their new blog Abounding Affections, it's a real encouragement to me. Well, thank you to anyone who has read this entire thing, and I would also like to let you guys know that I am going to start an all One28 Ministries "Prayer Blog." for all of those who are interested, so anyone who wants to be a part of this, just let me know. Thank you.

This is what I read today, I just thought that I would post it:

"But know this, that in the last days perilous times will come: For men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy, unloving, unforgiving, slanderers, without self-control, brutal, despisers of good, traitors, headstrong, haughty, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having a form of godliness but denying its power. And from such people turn away! For of this sort are those who creep into households and make captives of gullible women loaded down with sins, led away by various lusts, always learning and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth. Now as Jannes and Jambres resisted Moses, so do these also resist the truth: men of corrupt minds, disapproved concerning the faith; but they will progress no further, for their folly will be manifest to all, as theirs also was. But you have carefully followed my doctrine, manner of life, purpose, faith, longsuffering, love, perseverance, persecutions, afflictions, which happened to me at Antioch, at Iconium, at Lystra -- what persecutions I endured. And out of [them] all the Lord delivered me. Yes, and all who desire to live godly in Christ Jesus will suffer persecution. But evil men and impostors will grow worse and worse, deceiving and being deceived. But you must continue in the things which you have learned and been assured of, knowing from whom you have learned [them,] and that from childhood you have known the Holy Scriptures, which are able to make you wise for salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus. All Scripture [is] given by inspiration of God, and [is] profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work." -2Timothy 3

Mystery of Mercy
by: Caedmon's Call

I am the woman at the well, I am the harlot
I am the scattered seed that fell along the path
I am the son that ran away
And I am the bitter son that stayed

My God, my God why hast though accepted me
When all my love was vinegar to a thirsty King?
My God, my God why hast though accepted me
It's a mystery of mercy and the song, the song I sing

I am the angry man who came to stone the lover
I am the woman there ashamed before the crowd
I am the leper that gave thanks
But I am the nine that never came

My God, my God why hast though accepted me
When all my love was vinegar to a thirsty King?
My God, my God why hast though accepted me
It's a mystery of mercy and the song, the song I sing

You made the seed that made the tree
That made the cross that saved me
You gave me hope when there was none
You gave me your only Son

My God,My God,Lord you are my God.
My God,My God,Lord you are my God.
My God,My God,Lord you are my God.
My God,My God,Lord you are...my God.

Before the Throne of God Above

2006-02-16T22:33:00.000-08:00

Before the throne of God above,
I have a strong and perfect plea.
A great high Priest whose Name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me.
My name is graven on His hands,
My name is written on His heart.
I know that while in Heaven He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart.

When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end of all my sin.
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free.
For God the just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me.

Behold Him there the risen Lamb,
My perfect spotless righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
King of glory and of grace,
One in Himself I cannot die.
My soul is purchased by His blood,
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ my Savior and my God!

my edits

2006-01-30T18:23:00.000-08:00

Karma Krayma?

2006-01-06T14:28:00.000-08:00

Yo yo yo! You know its been awhile since I've posted something, so, here I go, uh no, no this isnt funny, I had one, I had a topic....hmm, I guess it doesnt agree with me, so I'll wing it...lets dance...1 Corinthians , this is the book that I have been reading in the past day, and it has been bringing me so much comfort, especially since I have been so stressed out lately because of school. I got really behind, and I know that I shouldn't worry because God has me in His hands, but...I dunno, I just, flipped out. I wasnt reading my Bible, I was trying to do it all on my own, and I totally lost it for awhile, I was in a bad line, line 13. But um...Now I'm in His word, and I'm doing great, because I know that man cannot do anything to me if I'm in Gods hands. So, I just dont worry about it, right? because I know that it doesnt matter what kinda grades I get, it just matters that I do my very best and do it for God, which I am trying very hard to do, I'm not doing too well right now, but I'm gunna make a comeback...it will be done, it will be done! So I covet your prayers for my strength at school, and also my health. As many of you know ( I'm sure) I get very sick very often, and I have been fighting a bug for about a month now, I mean, it started out as a bad fever with no audible abbilities, ( as the doctor said) and then I started throwing up on Christmas, and now I have this cough thing (that IS going away) where I was throwing up blood, ugly stuff, ugly stuff, it got pretty violent, and I... well...we almost lost one kid named Gupta...but hes ok now, hes at harbor view, and I just hope that we dont have anything legal on our hands. No but seriously we're having fun here.

Heaven will bring me sweeter rest

2005-12-23T23:00:00.000-08:00

I really really love this song. So, you dont need to comment, I just I wanted to post this. It really makes me think about my salvation, every time, without fail.

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"Jesus, I My Cross Have Taken"

by Henry Francis Lyte

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Jesus, I my cross have taken,

All to leave and follow Thee;

Destitute, despised, forsaken,

Thou from hence my All shalt be.

Perish every fond ambition,

All I've sought or hoped or known;

Yet how rich is my condition!

God and heaven are still my own.

Let the world despise and leave me,

They have left my Savior, too.

Human hearts and looks deceive me;

Thou art not, like them, untrue.

And while Thou shalt smile upon me,

God of wisdom, love, and might,

Foes may hate and friends disown me;

Show Thy face, and all is bright.

Go, then, earthly fame and treasure!

Come, disaster, scorn, and pain!

In Thy service, pain is pleasure;

With Thy favor, loss is gain.

I have called Thee Abba, Father!

I have stayed my heart on Thee.

Storms may howl, and clouds may gather,

All must work for good to me.

Man may trouble and distress me,

'Twill but drive me to Thy breast;

Life with trials hard may press me,

Heaven will bring me sweeter rest.

Oh, 'tis not in grief to harm me

While Thy love is left to me;

Oh, 'twere not in joy to charm me

Were that joy unmixed with Thee.

Take, my soul, thy full salvation;

Rise o'er sin and fear and care;

Joy to find in every station,

Something still to do or bear.

Think what Spirit dwells within thee,

What a Father's smile is thine,

What a Savior died to win thee;

Child of heaven, shouldst thou repine?

Haste, then, on from grace to glory,

Armed by faith and winged by prayer;

Heaven's eternal day's before thee,

God's own hand shall guide thee there.

Soon shall close the earthly mission,

Swift shall pass thy pilgrim days,

Hope soon change to glad fruition,

Faith to sight, and prayer to praise.

Do not be Afraid.

2005-12-07T22:34:00.000-08:00

Lovely looking people of blogdoo!! I'm sorry that I haven't been.....faithful, on my blogging. And I have to say that I probably wont be faithful.....so basically....I dont think I'm going to do anything different. But I do enjoy doing this, thats why I like to savor the flavor with this. But I really dont know what to say, I have no subjects....um, at all. But I love ya, and once I get a subject, I'll be there....waiting for you

Repost:Jesus is my HOMEBOY!

2005-12-03T13:15:00.000-08:00

Just repostin this to see how you guys feel. This was actually my second post ever! So yah, long time ago, good times though.....good times. But yah, just comment on this to share your opinions
on it.
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Jesus is my homeboy, I don't think so. I have been seeing these shirts everywhere and all I have to say is, not even close. Obviously the "Christians" who wear this shirt haven't thought about it, (That or they don't have the right perspective on who God is.) Jesus is not my homeboy, He is my Lord and Saviour, the son of God and of man, and my personal refuge. Though mainly secular people wear this shirt, they were selling them at Creation west, one of the biggest (if not the biggest) Christian festivals in the country. Peter Fuler, the lead singer of Newsboys, said, "He isn't my homeboy, He's my Lord." So I have to completely agree with him on that. Brother in Christ, Kramer.P.S.DISCUSS!

Commments:

-Jazzsy said:
I agree with you 100%

-Love said:
I believe it is better to have his name out there in some positive way than not at all. The shirts are helping to spread the word that it is ok and "cool" to love the Lord. You don't have to analyze the word "homeboy" as offensive, it could also mean the this is someone you respect, believe in, & LOVE. Only GOD can truly judge. I see it as promoting Jesus, & how can that be bad.

This one goes out to Pasta Zimma

2005-11-24T00:30:00.000-08:00

(random picture)

Well hello all, I'm currently writing this entry at........12:31 PM, so I'm kinda tired, but hey, it makes it all the more interesting.........I mean boring and pointless........... So tomorrow is Thanksgiving!!! WOOT WOOT! And not to mention the annual turkey bowl. We're going to have a blast over there early in the morning, playing flag (not tackle mind you, flag) footall in all the glorious fog, ohh I love it. But yah.....tonight was an awesome night, Dave Zim is up here for a couple of days, and so we all hung out for a while over at the Martin's, making some memories and sharing some too. SO it was fun.

At church tonight we had the Thanksgiving eve service where people stand up and share about what God is doing in their lives or what the have learned from this year or, the most popular, what they were thankful for, which is suitable for the occasion. But it was awesome, we had it all, from new comers to dynasours (no offense to anyone), from laughs to tears, it was truly a great night. But when I stood up, I guess I was a little late, and we were supposed to be done, but what the heck, I'm a rebel, a church rebel, so I stood up right after Chris M, and when I got up there, it seemed to me like everyone was ready for it to be over with, I know I wanted it to keep going, but from what I saw, people were really tired. So I felt out of sorts, but I stood up there and said that I was thankful for Tony and that I was thankful that I'm back at Grace under the teaching of pastor Zimmer and SK, and then I mentioned Mark, and how this year we have had some good memories, and I ended it with, "and I just love all you guys." And there was like a sweet little pause in the crowds whispering. And then I sat down. Then Natalie got up and started speaking (NOTICE:That I'm not telling you this because something funny happened, I'm just giving you an overview of my sharing time) and I remebered that I forgot to mention Dave Z, and I was all bumbed out so I decided to get back up after Natalie and share that I was glad Dave is here. So I stand up and I said, "sorry I just wanted to share one more thing." and everyone laughed, and then jokingly I said "I'm just grateful for my brother......." (I thought it was funny because I had already shared about that and so..............yah) then everyone laughed again. And then I did my whole deal about Dave being here and stuff. But the weird thing is that I didnt have the butterflies, my heart wasnt pounding at a million miles per hour, it was a little light feeling though, but I all in all enjoyed it immensly. So I stated that I look up to Dave alot (which I do), mainly from a Christian stand point but also I respect him so much musically, being a musician myself. Because one can only hope to be as talented as Dave when it comes to music. But yah that was it basically, so I was really glad that I shared tonight. And basically I'm just writing all this blab for my biggest fan..........PZ !(pasta Zimma) And this was all I had to talk about.

But just to let you guys know how my homeschooling is going, I'll give you a summary. So at this new school, Sky Valley, it is more of a college setting than a traditional public or private school's. There aren't grades like 8th, 9th, 10th, and so on, but instead you just take the courses that you want to and the courses that are required until you have enough credits or if you've completed all your classes, so that you can graduate. But at this school I was told that like 70% of the kids are Christians, so I will feel a little at home in that regard. But the Lord, He is so good to us!! I had the first day of school there yesterday (Tuesday) and the entire time, God kept my focus on Him, I wasn't out to look cool, but I was out to bring glory to Him. And I knew that that wasn't me fueling this drive. So I had no trouble walking around by myself, talking to people, making jokes, because I knew that God as walking right beside me. So I was having a conversation with God the entire time, just Him and me, and I loved it. But at this school, a girl goes there that I have known since I was a wee little Kevin, Anna Wilhelm. The Wilhelms used to go to Grace Bible Church, Mr. Wilhelm (if I'm not mistaken) was the photographer. I just thought that that was really cool. Oh and a lady named Mrs. Mauer or Mower or something like that I dont know how to spell it, who also went to Grace, is a teacher there. So God did a great job making me feel comfortable there. Even though I dont have friends there yet. But it was good, and I'm looking forward to seeing the growth that the Lord will give me because of this homeschooling. Catch yall later on the Seinfeld blog that is Mockingbird.

NICE NICE!!

2005-11-14T23:29:00.000-08:00

Ok, so Becca Giordano just tarted a blog, like, tonight, so you faithful bloggers HAD BETTER start checking hers regularly too! Have a nice day.

This is the day that the Lord has made

2005-11-14T22:05:00.000-08:00

This is the day that the Lord has made, I need to remember that. Today I took a look at the building where I will be spending five hours a week every for homeschooling, and I have to tell you that,I did't like what I saw. When I began the quest of the homeschool, I was hoping that I would do ALL of my work at MY house, in MY room, or in MY office, in MY comfort zone, but I won't be. I will be doing most of my work from home, but I still have o go into a building. Every time I think about that, my heart sinks, but when I think of the fact that the Lord hasgiven me this task, or in my case, how I feel, this burden. And so I know that I must be a light for Christ in this new environment, but it's so hard to accet it. And if I had my choice, I would do all my work from home. But the power that be decided that I should do this. So Im just asking for your prayers, as I do this.

Ah, look at all the lonely people

2005-11-13T12:51:00.000-08:00

"Ah, look at all the lonely people!
Ah, look at al the lonely people!
Ah, look at all the lonely people

Elanor Rigby, picks up the rice in the church where her wedding has been,
lives in a dream,
Waits at the window, wearing the face that she keeps in a jar by the door,
Who is it for?"

Ok, does anyone know what the name of this song is? It's right there if you dont know it, you're staring it right in the face..........It's "Eleanor Rigby!" C'mon, if you didnt know that...smack your friend!Yah, c'mon, do it, you kow you need to, its going to be fun. Alright, alright. So whats the name of the band? huh? The greatest pop band of all time. I classify them as classic rock, because I dont like pop, but they are pretty good. The Beatles! C'mon, c'mon. You guys need to brush up on your musical knowledge. But anyway. That was fun, huh? So how it goes? It's been a long week fo me, I've been at home with no school work to do, so I was pretty bored. But I did play the piano, and the guitar a whole lot. And I wrote two songs, unfortuantely, they were deleted. ohhh man, I actually wrote good one too, for the first time. I might be able to remeber it, but, whatever. It was a mistake. I also got my laptop, and so I've been fooling around on that. Bt yah, it' been a long week. So I'm going to start the hoeschooling this week, and I'm going to skip a grade. I'm now a freshman and now I am back to the bottom of the food chain. Yes yes, the bottom of the food chain. I'm going to have to beat some people up to get my rep up, huh? Well I wouldn't actully do that, but I might verbally abuse some poor kid, just because I'm stupid! But anyway.

SK spoke a really good message on the vanity of work. He talked about our motives through our wor. Are we doing the work jut to quiet our parents or our boss? Are we doing it just because we're forced to? Or are we doing it for God with all of our might? What I was thinking about was that alot of the time, I do it just because I'm scared of the outcome if I DON'T do it. This is definitely an area that I need to work on. I really enjoyed the message today, like I loved it. Thanks SK.

Also, umm, I dont have anything else to talk about. Sorry, I wish I did. But I'm dry.

fine

2005-11-10T14:51:00.001-08:00

Alright alright. My new laptop is NOT a mac, it's a Toshiba, so I'm not a ninja warrior. But oh man, this is a NICE computer, wowwy, you know. It only cost 500 $, so we got it at a good price. And frankly, I love it! Not to the extent of like....obsession, but i love typing on it, I love being on it forno real reason, just hangin on it yu know? But yah, it's a blast. I actually got it for homeschooling, so I could do work at my brother's, my mom's, and at my dad's. So it's very versatile, very versatile. So, I also just got my keyboard! Wow, God has really blessed me this year, man, He's blessed me a whole bunch this lifetime! Certainly 4000000000000 times more than I deserve. But ah, it's fun, and I'm just about to download Esword, so........ Have a great week.

ohhhhh

2005-11-10T12:08:00.000-08:00

Just lettin you guys know that this is my first blog subsciption on my new laptop! Oh ya!

What IS in my ipod?

2005-11-09T13:26:00.000-08:00

Hmmm. This is kinda.....wait.....totally meaningless, but DZ and Tony have done it, so you know, why not? Okay I have a nano, and I have like 485 songs or something on it, so here are my playlists:

aqualung: brighter than sunshine
blue merle: burning in the sun
brandon heath: soldier
caedmon's call: 40 acres
caedmon's call: long line of leavers
caedmon's call: share the well
coldplay: a rush of blood to the head
coldplay: parachutes
coldplay: x & y
creadence clearwater revival: bad moon rising
damien rice: o
daniel powter: bad day
death cab for cutie: plans
derek webb: i see things upside down
derek webb: she must and shall go free
derek webb: the house show
donovan frankenreiter: donovan frankenreiter
fall out boy: sugar we're goin' down
harry conick jr: come by me
i am sam: soundtrack
jack johnson: in between dreams
jamie cullum: catching tales
jamie cullum: twentysomething
jars of clay: if i left the zoo
jars of clay: redemption songs
jason mraz: wordplay
john legend: get lifted
john mayer: dauhgters
josh kelley: only you
keane: hopes and fears
marc broussard: carenco
matchbox20: more than you think
michael buble: it's time
muse: absolution
ozzy osbourne: crazy train
queen: greatest hits I
queen: greatest hits II
ronan keating: when you say nothing
sandra mccracken: july eve
seven places: hear us say jesus
shawn mcdonald: simply nothing
snow patrol: final straw
switchfoot: nothing is sound
switchfoot: the beautiful let down
teitur: poetry and aeroplanes
teitur: thief about to break
train: alive at last
u2: how to dismantle an atomic bomb

So thats it. It'll all chang in two days, when I get my toshiba laptop. OH YAH! But yah, I love all that music. (excpt for jason mraz, I dont know why he's on there.) But the rest is good stuff, gooood stuff.

tklog.blogspot.com - Tony's blog
infaith.blogspot.com - Dave's blog

NICE

2005-11-03T22:42:00.000-08:00

Hey yall! Whats up home dog diggities? How's life? Well thats just smakkin. But seriously, I'm getting rid of my myspace! Yah I know, I was loving it for awhile, like I noticed that I spent way too much time in there. But I do have to give it some credit, I have talked to friends that I haven't seen in a dog's age because of it. So in that regard I liked it. But yah I prayed about it, and I felt that I needed to, so now I'm stuck with you guys. No I'm kidding, you guys are way cooler tahn those greasy myspace animals of old. So I'm looking forward to comin to you slic-ee's about my life and my struggles and even my......................uplift(s). (?) I know I know. I'm a horrible person. But seriously we're having fun here. (thanks Dave for that line, or thanks Will Ferrel I guess) But speaking of Dave, is he not the funniest guy on this planet? He left me the funniest email ever for my birthday, oh my goodness, Dave you are so quick man! I love ya dude! But it was so random and smart.....well It was Dave at his best. We all miss you man.

DUDE, have you noticed that my blog entries are seriously just me babbling the entire time? hahahahaha................I love it!

But guess what? About a week ago, at the awana funfair, when I was doing the music booth, I was head bangin the whole time, I was doing it left and right and every which way to sunday and I got this aweful feeling in my neck the next morning, and I had to go to the doctors yesterday, and I just heard, seriously, just heard that it's pretty certain that I fractured my neck......yah.....ouch right. But I'm still in high spirits right now listening to Seven Places and Caedmon's Call, so I'm good. I'm just glorifying God and having the best time doing it. So if you could still pray for me that would be great. Oh and pray for TK, we found out that luckily he doesn't have viral meningitas,(spelling? yes? no? yes?) but he will just have to take pills for the rest of his life because of his migraines, so..........ahem...........Well, your prayers are coveted by us Kevin-anators. So I hope you all had a good week. OH MYLANTA! I almost forgot, I am almost for sure gettin homschooled from next week on......................................So I'm kinda excited and kinda sad, I've most assureadly have mixed feelings. But I'm going to role with the hand the hand that feeds. So....I really got nothin to talk about other than that, except for the fact that I got the Andy's blog address it's: theebowers.blogspot.com. So have a great rest of thee weeketh.

P.S. -I don't care about spelling errors Tony (if there are any)

Mmmmmmmm

2005-10-28T17:09:00.000-07:00

Nice. Whats up yo? How's it going? Who cares? No I'm kidding, but seriously, I don't. Firsties firsties, wow, it's been awhile my beloved, seriously I'm ashamed of myself. I would like to congradulate Mr. Andy Bowers for getting a blog, have fun Andy! Next, wow, ya know. But anyway I have an exciting week, really I have, what I tell you such the truth! Tomorrow, I will be preforming at the Grace Academy gym, I will be accompanied by countless young'ins. You know the "youth booth" the thing that D.Z. (Davey Zimma) did last year where he lip sanc to music while kids would pretend to play the music behind. If you don't know what I'm talking about, I think it's on the one28 website, go to the videos section or wherever it is, it's a hilarious video. Those of you who remeber it I'm sure you recall the stunt that Dave tried to pull where he stood on the bass drum and then he slipped and like face planted on the tomm. Yah he said he had the biggest headache ever right then, but we all owe Dave a round of applause for that demonstration of "what no to do in case being the host of the awana fun fair youth booth."

But it's great to be hear folks, I feel honored to make an apearance hear tonight.

I don't know where that came from.......but I stand by it!Well I have nothing more to say, honestly I don't. so............................I'm illegally parked!

almost there....almost there....almost there

2005-10-27T22:29:00.000-07:00

Wow it's been awhile my friends, and it feels good to be back in the blog saddle. UMMMM. But I don't have anything to talk about other than the fact that I got A NANO FOR MY BIRTHDAY! hahahahahahaha! Yessssssss.....................It fells so good. And I'm about to go get a piano/keyboard! This is a great year! I mean great year. So any way expect a long blog llike in a couple of days if anyone reads this ever..........ever..................ever. Anyway have a great week!

Help, somebody

2005-10-13T20:48:00.000-07:00

I know that Myspace is a controversial issue in this day and age in the church. Many bad things are on there, but what if your myspace is a place for God, what if you devote it to God and teach and show His live there? Would you still consider it a bad thing to do? I dont have bad things on myspace, and I do talk about God and what I'm learning in the Bible. I need some wisdom here, if I should stop, just tell me, just know, that as long as I am on there, I will continue to show and talk about the never ending love of God. I need help, and yes I have prayed about it, but I still don't know.

-Confused in Monroe

HAHAHA! Did you catch that, it's like the dear abbey columns in the news paper, hahahaha.............I hate it when you guys do that, I'm off to go cry.

Man O Man

2005-10-11T18:20:00.000-07:00

Oh man, I sick, and hate it I do. I cant even type! I have the worst headache, and this morning you couldn't even understand what I was saying, I sounded like Chubacha. But, now I'm recovering after a five hour nap, and I had decided that I will only miss one day of school from this illness. I didn't like not going to school, but I would have hated going to school more. It would have literally have been as if I was in the aweful city of Skykomish for a WHOLE DAY! Could you imagine the horor, that's what it would have been like. So you could see that I had no choice but to stay home, only those bred in the hellish environment can withstand it, I wasn't, so I couldn't. So you see, men like me only live to see the next day, because of other men sacrificing their lives to rid this world of things like the cold, aids, cancer, mono, and Skykomish. But we must go on, for me, you, and for all those poor, lonely, little children from the depths of the cold, dark, and extremely stupid places like Skykomish.....and....and....Duluth. So now, it's our time, our time to shine and mine for real gold, not that stupid pyrite crap. We must prevail, we will, or else the world as we no it will fall into the hands of people like, Alec Baldwin, and the artist formally known as Prince, and others such as Snoop, and MC Hammer Daddy. But no, they can not, will not, and should not, prevail! FOR I AM SPARTAGUS! But seriously, it sucks being sick, just ask my brother who has been sick for a dog's age. I guess his wisdom teeth are pushing too hard against some other thing in his mouth or whatever, so he has aweful, horrific migraines, and it makes him wet the bed. (No I'm kidding, but seriously...it happens) So if you could pray for him and me, actually, pray for everyone, 'cause everyone's sick right now. In the entire world, only the Dahli Lama and Mrs. Marzoff aren't sick.

I know...I know

2005-10-08T11:15:00.000-07:00

I know, I said that I hated myspace, but guess what, I got an account. Yes, I think that whoever is reading this should get one too. It's a place where you can see and talk to friends that you haven't seen in awhile, I love it. And yes, there are many people on their who have dirty mouths, but its the same with blogger, but I make sure that there is none of that on my site. I sent out a bulletin saying like, "no disrespect of women, no innapropriate talk, or you will be kicked off my site." or aomething of that sort. But I ove talking to old friends, its fun, so now I'm a myspacer and a blogger. Don't get me wrong, I love blogger way more, but it's nice to have myspace too.

David, if you're reading this, get myspace, it'll be cool to have you in the family, and to be able to talk to you.

But did yall catch the Yankee Angels game? That was one long, dang game. But it was a good one, I loved every minute, all 55,000,000,000 minutes of it, at least that's what it felt like. But what a bad year for theM's, huh? So dissapointing, but we have an exciting new team I think, with all that talent, I'm looking forward to next year.

So Dwebb and my birthday are both approaching rapidly. Dwebb is on the 15th, and my birthday is on the 20th. October, what a month. I love fall, more than any other season, I don't know why, oh maybe its because of my birhtday. Maybe I'm just unwell in the head, I don't know. But I love this month.

2005-10-05T23:21:00.000-07:00

Ladies and gentleman, introducing Milton Waddams.

I love that picture, sorry I had to do it.

Come back to me rainbow.

2005-10-03T20:34:00.000-07:00

I've got the rainbow jones. I want a rainbow, that's it. I want it, and, I will have it, it will be mine...

But I've decided to not blog anymore on my book The Holiness of God. But I still will do prayer requests, and if you have a request, comment on it, and I'll put it up there. That's all there is to it. It's almost a crime not to. It's free, it's....really amazing, is what it is. And it doesn't cost a dime.

But wow, you know.

Sha sheila eckay. This year has been awesome so far. This year, I have become friends with Natalie and Esther, Stu, Micah G, and a guy named Flo. But it's really exciting, all these new friends, I feel actually, wanted, I don't know, maybe I'm way off. But yeah man, what a year's beginning. I hope yall checked out my brother's blog. It's nice to have him back in the saddle. But seriously, I want a rainbow. I can't explain it....dangit.....but I just want one, I want to see the brilliance of God's glory, the wonderful colors, and I will, I will, catch that dang leprechaun. " you won't get me pot of gold.....hahaha." SHUTUP! But I hope yall had a good week, I know I did. I loved it. It was amazing. Scrumtrelescent. I wish they're all like that. Amazing. I'm done. Shutup. You....mock me style of typing?-says Mr. Yamamotokahn. I can actually type 750 words per....second. It took me one second to type this. what.(?)

Prayer requests:

Give me some people! ''C'mon trouble." as the stallion of a man Mr. Voges would say.

C'mon.

2005-09-30T19:41:00.000-07:00

SHort and sad post. At the retreat, there was a biblezine present. It made me sad, a little mad, and like I neede to buy that person a Bible and show them this verse:

2 Cor. 4:2- We reject all shameful and underhanded methods. We do not try to trick anyone, and we do not distort the word of God.

WhoHa!

2005-09-30T18:59:00.000-07:00

Great sweetness mixed with love and a little gas. What a retreat. Yo, let me tell you, I'll only tell you once, but it was awesome. Let me tell you why. "Long ago, in the far away land of ancient Greece, there was a hero named Hercules."..........................................I loved the retreat, not because of the activities, not the jokes or the stories, or the woods, but the speaking and worshiping. Kudos to ye men of daddy Sarr, Mr. lugg, Mr. Pearce, Ian, and last but certainly not least.........SHIGGINS! Holy cow, I've never heard a sermon preached from that point of view, it was, well, ther is no word in the English language to describe it, so I shall make one up....scrumtrelescent. It was a delight. Seriously, I wish that you would like, use it again, if you haven't already, for the people who totally missed out on, um....THE HOLY SPIRIT TOTALLY WORKING A MIRACLE IN THE FORM OF A SERMON THROUGH YOU.....!!!!!!!. Anyway, I feel bad for those of you who missed out.

Oh, and sorry Sean that I couldn't post at the retreat, I was just slackin'.

And now I'm kidding, which I hope that you guys caught that. And those of you who did are making fun of me now.

Prayer requests:

I recked my knee at the retreat, it didn't hurt at first, then it kinda hurt last night, enough for me not to play capture the flag, then it hurt today at like twelve on, and now, it......hurts.....bad! So if you could pray for that, that would be appreciated.

For the JH, and it's theme this year, "Unity". That we would be unified more and more.

All those who are sick or hurt in any way.

And a praise that Dwebb is comin' to town. Check out "Just about had a heart attack" on this link.

Book update on Holiness of God:

Scratch what I said last time. This book is awesome! I would recommend this book to every and any believer.
***** Five golden stars sparkling in the abyss of love, liberty, and the pursuit of hapiness.

Wha' Happened?

2005-09-27T18:52:00.000-07:00

Hey, Wha' Happened? Why doesn't anyone but my brother Tony, (Who is currently single and extremely good looking) post a comment on my blog anymore. I don't get it, "It makes me angry, I'm just spitting angry." It actually makes me sad, that's why I have that lovely picture of Dave up there. But I miss comments from people like Sean and Micah, and I wish that some other peolpe would, since I post on theirs.

SO. I have good news and I have bad news, the bad news is that I'm so distrought, that I'm seriously considering about thinking that I shouldn't comment on anyone's blog but Tony's. The good news is that I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance. But still......................................................................C'MON NOW! I'm going to have to talk to some people and get this straightened out or something, I dunno, maybe I'll just go take a nap. Anyway, I strongly suggest that even if I don't know you, I wanna be your friend, I'm good at being friends, you know. Like I do stuff for you and stuff.(?) Also, I think I wanna become a Chinese citizen.

Prayer requets:

JH retreat.

The people in Duluth, MN, they don't know how bad they have it.

The Holiness of God book update:

So far it's pretty good, it's gotten kinda boring, he just keep... repeating andrepeating, but I'm definately enjoying the book.
**** stars out of five.

JH Retreat!

2005-09-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

Random picture.

Nice.

What in the world? It's the JH retreat, man.I'm so excited, well how can one not be excited by this extremely....................................exciting, piece of information. I know that I'm excited.

But this is on a sadder note. I've heard that there are actually people in the Northwest, that, well, they're not going to be um...um....at the jh retreat. Actually, I'm kinda laughing in my heart at you, too bad so sad. Well enough with that sin. I'm most excited though about the fact that I'm in Ian and Dave Giordano's cabin, yo. I wish that you could here the voices that I'm doing as I type this extremely fast. Like I type....at least.....750 words per minute. WHAT? HUH? That's what I thought. Anyway, Dave and I should have a good times like we usually do, quoting movies and shows, as well as Ian and I's subtle humor, yet side splitting as usual. But I can't tell you how much I'm looking forward to this, all the fellowship, the games, the worship, the teaching, the rain. No I'm kidding. (But seriously, it will.)

But um, for those of you goig to the JH retreat, I'll see you Wednesday.

Prayer requests:

That the retreat would go smoothly, and that people would hunger for the teaching and the Word.

That the people in the gulf coast would realize in the aftermath of the hurricanes, that they need God.

Book update:

I have started The Holiness of God, and so far it is awesome, I'm only on the second chapter, but I love the style of the writing, and I love that there is comic relief. But mostly I love the point of view that Sproul has, and his story of how he became a "Christian" and then how he struggled with learning somethings about God, tha he didn't expect.

So far:
**** -stars

Today was a good day.

2005-09-25T20:54:00.000-07:00

My friends, my brothers, my sistas, and my leaders. Today WAS a good day, for the off the wall update on my sad and boring life. But I've decided to give you a list of my 20 most favorite songs as of now, not in any order, because that would take way too much energy. This is a completely random subject, but I reccomend that if you don't recognize any of these names, to look into them, because this is a list of talent. So here it is.

Home (Michael Buble)
The Ocean (Teitor)
Unwell (Matchbox20)
Come Around (Mark Broussard)
The Blower's Daughter (Damien Rice)
Exit Music [For a Film] (Radiohead)
Cold (Matchbox20)
Fix You (Coldplay)
Talk (Coldplay)
Proof (Coldplay)
Brighter than Sunshine (Aqualung)
Beloved (Derek Webb)
When You Say Nothing (Ronan Keating)
All at Sea (Jamie Cullum)
Twentysomething (Jamie Cullum)
Sitting Waiting Wishing (Jack Johnson)
It Don't Matter (Donovan Frankenreiter)
Tears in Heaven (Eric Clapton)
The Church (Derek Webb)

Anyway that is the list. Some good music right ther'. I seriously suggest all of those songs, (except Crazy Train) But I hope that if you're intrigued, that the links will serve you right. Sorry about the no Teitor link, but if you can... LISTEN TO 'EM. He's brilliant, and it's nice and easy litening music. But right now I'm listening to something that I haven't listened to for awhile, D Webb-Lover. What an amazing song! The lyrics make me so happy. Anyway, like I said I would be doing, here's the list of prayer requests:

President Bush, for his wisdom to rule this country.

For the men and women in the armed services.

Micah Lugg, as he is in Israel, a very dangerous place.

And lastly, I'm moving to my new house this weekend, so that the plans would go over smoothly, and that we'll have enough help.

Now, If you read the last post, Isaid that I would dedicate a section to whichever book I'm reading at the time. Unfortuneatly, I'm just about to start it tonight, so I don't know how good it is. But the book is, 'The Holiness of God" By RC Sproul. So next blog I will give my update on it's goodness.

Climb on a Back That's strong.

2005-09-22T20:31:00.000-07:00

I NEED GOD! In the past few days that has become more evident. I can't live this life with the feeling of, "I don't need God. Look at me, just look, are you looking? If you are, you've gotta be liking what see. I don't need God." As Pastor Sean Kiley Higgins The Man pointed out, He is the only self-sufficient one, He had no beginning and will have no end. He was, and is, and is to come.

So, the reason that I've realized that I need Him more and more is actually because I have been questioning my faith alot lately. If I die, will I be going to heaven or hell? I ask myself, How do I know? What signs are there? And if I am a "Christian", can people tell? I want them to be able to tell that I live for the Lord, the I Am, the powerful and just and loving Father of holiness and mercy. So, this past week has been a great learning and awakening one, I can only hope to experienc every week like this one.

Prayer list:

Breanna Camp, a girl that I've known since I was six, got in an aweful car accident this week. They were pulling out of Grace, and they were at the light, and Mrs. Camp, had a green, so I guess she was looking at Breanna in the back or something, and the light turned red, and they hit a truck if I'm not mistaken, don't take this to court. But I know it was pretty severe. She has a swollen back and neck, and her mom is fine, but her brother, might have to have plastic surgery on his face to rid of the scars. So please please please pray for them, car accidents shake you up, and having a scarred face son must be a difficult thing to feel for Mrs. Camp.

Also, we all know of hurricane Rita, so be praying for the people down there.

Micah James Lugg, as he is in Israel, a pretty dangerous place right now.

All of our men and women in the armed forces.

President Bush.

Another thing I'm going to start doing on my blogs, is I will tell you what book I am reading, and where I am in it, and how good or bad it is. Right now I'm about to start the RC Sproul book, The Holiness of God. It looks pretty good, so I'll keep you posted.

P.S. If you're wondering about the picture, I'm the listening to the hit from the movie and play, Saturday Night Fever, Immortality! AHHHH YES!

Happy Birthday!

2005-09-17T13:23:00.000-07:00

Alright Alright Alright! Happy birthday Tony, I hope you liked your surprise party that Jim, Ian, Jesse, Dave, Esther, Natalie, Becca, and I threw for you and Kim. I know I had fun, making memories and such. As if that wasn't enough....... hold on.......Dwebbb is coming to town? Yonkers! Out of all the cities in Washington, He's coming to Marysville? Wha' Happened! I thank God every day for it. I think that God wins the best birhtday present of all time award. Even though it's like a month after your actual birthday. All in good time. It's also 5 days before my birthday I'll have you know, so it's almost like a present to me too. As if the gift of life wasn't enough, God conjures up this wonderful event of love and musical ability.

Also on the blog schedule of topics for September 17, 2005, at 1:00, I am making progress in my Bible reading, as well as taking up my cross. Every chance I get, the Holy Spirit gives me the strength to announce my faith in Christ. I'm not hesitent to listen to Christian music in public any more, and I pray when I want to pray instead of thinking,"What will people think when they here that I'm a Jesus freak, what will people do when they find that it's true." Now,"I don't really care if they label me a Jesus freak." I forget the rest. Anyway, Thanks for agreeing, (those of you who did) to help me with this problem. I'm prayin for you guys too.

Last Wednesday, I had my first one 28 small group meeting. It was sweet. I like my group too. It's not my usual circle of friends, and I like that. I'm expanding in my...........uhhh................ I got nothin'. Anyway, I'm not just talking with the usual cats. Also next week is the cornkick, looking forward to that. And after that is the Junior High Retreat, that will be AWESOME, I can't wait. So I've got a pretty exciting schedule coming up. Hope to see you all%

Processesing.........

2005-09-11T21:12:00.000-07:00

Tonight at night service, pastor Zimmer said something that made me think. It wasn't anything complicated or new, I had just never thought of it before. He simply stated the fact that everyone, no matter how evil or pure, will live forever. I knew that, but I had never put two and two together. When I think of eternity, I think of God's children in heaven worshiping Him forever, not of people being tortured non stop for all of eternity. And this aweful thought alone made me question my faith. Am I going to be dancing in the Lord's light, or will I be down in hell, rotting forever, to sounds that no one can imagine?

The Lord used this little fact to help strengthen me in my faith, and make me want to be the Lord's hands and feet more often, like, everyday. I wish that none of these sinners on earth would ever have to endure the depths of hell. So I, Kramer P Kevin, have hear by decided to carry my cross everywhere the Lord takes me, and I will share the Lord's love, no matter the humiliation or scorn that follows. So I ask you brothers and sisters in Christ, to uphold me and challenge me in this mission. And to challenge me on my Bible reading, and I will do the same. Also pray for me and my strenghth, I am praying for yours. I don't want to be a christian who's ashamed of God's name, that's like throwing His gift of life back in His face. So I won't be

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil."

And by the way. I have just been informed that I will be in Jesse and Curtis's group. SUNSHINE! rok on.

Second day of school

2005-09-08T19:44:00.000-07:00

Hi ho! It's time fo da Kramer to bloga.
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So today is the second day of school. Yep, it's started, the eighth grade year. I dunno if I'm looking forward to the next 178 school days that I have in front of me, but I know that I will try my best.....for the first 20 days, then I'll get unmotivated.(I kid, I kid!) Anyway, I might be doing this thing where I go to grace for like a month or two, then I homeschool the rest of the year. This way I can go straight into 9th grade this year, and graduate one year ahead. This might actually happen too. It's not another, "Aww, Kramer's just talkie and no walkie!" Well guess what.....It's not nice ridicule people.....Jerk! It will happen, if I want it to. I still haven't decided if I want one year of solitary confinement yet. But the Giorodano (spelling? yes,no.) face is telling me that I should. Thats what he and Becca did. And look how they turned out, or don't. Ashauhauhauhau. (I kid, I kid)

Anotha subject. This year we have a girl in the ninth grade who looks like she has been in a fire. Her face has wounds all over it. And all I thought while she walked by and other people stared was, she must be an amazing girl. But the point of all this is, please pray for her, because kids can be cruel. I overheard a couple of kids (no names) not being polite at all, not to her face though. (yeah another sin, gossip) That is not christ like. Christ would eat lunch with her, share his snack pack, and discuss how her spiritual walk was going. So please pray also for the kids who know no compassion.

Giggity Giggity!

2005-09-06T21:06:00.000-07:00

The Revolve Biblezine, a great way to lead kids to God who feel uncomfortable or unmotivated and who don't want to go to church because they feel that they have better things to do, right? WRONG YO! And I mean wrong, I mean it man, not even kidding. "Yeah we need to come up with a Bible that makes it easy to learn of the "essentials" of the New testment, and that makes kids feel better about themselves. Because they aren't good enough in this world, they don't look good enough, they don't know how to impress the right guy or girl. WE need to help these poor kids who don't deserve to be cool YET, but they will after they read our magazine." Wow give yourself a hand mister Thomas Nelson, your sympathy is so.......refreshing. I feel that there should be more people like you in this world, people who change the Word of our God, so that kids might just get "cooler.''

Mister Nelson, why do you take it upon yourself to make the Bible better for young kids? If you could do it better, why wouldn't God have you interpret His word in the first place instead of Peter, Paul, and guys like Moses? The whole fact that you inserted things like, "Is he the right guy?" Babe, I've got 5 words for you, READ THE BIBLE AND PRAY, hun! And if you'll look closely at this certain magazine that is up there, it says the worship issue. What kind worship songs would they sing? How about "Indescribeable," or "Holy, Holy, Holy?" But don't these songs sing of God's greatness? I think they do, and if God is so great, wouldn't you think that Mr. Nelson or whoever, would take into account that He Himself (God) could reach these unmotivated and unsaved people, without the help of this lovely christian fashion magazine?

Teacher, I called this MONSTER last night,(just joking.....I emailed him)about this exact subject, I also emailed these verses:

In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God, and the word was God.
John 1:1

and 2 Cor. 4:1, I don't remeber it, but I remeber, "Don't tamper with the word of God."

If you see a mistake I made on this topic, just add your comment. I WANNA KNOW!

One 28, here I come. Yah!

2005-09-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

Preach it Preacha! For the first time in eleven days, I got the chance to add another chapter to the extremely actioned-packed saga of the new, "Blogboy Homeboy." I changed the name because I thought that the old name was....uh....STUPID! Anyway I've liked this one better since Sean introduced it to me.

Speakin' of Sean, I am now an official One 28'r.I'm so excited that I can feel it in me buns. I can't wait to actually start small groups. Although, I don't know what group I am in as of yet.

Anywhohow, I'd like to ask all of you in my large audience to pray for my mom, for she hath no home, she is living with a friend as I speak, and I moved in with my dad, and my brother Tony is living with the Ruhlman. So if you could pray for us, that would be most appreciated. I wold also like to thank Jesse Martin for dedicating so much time to helping us move, like it was a long time. Also thank you to Becca, Sara, and Dave G for helping. WE ARE MOVED!

School is about to start, and I have been thinking that instead of taking the entire eighth grade year at Grace, I might go homeschool for one year so that I can skip most of eighth. The Giorodano family does that and it sounds mighty good to me. So keep readin', and keep checkin', you know ya like it.

Mazeltoff!

2005-08-22T20:10:00.000-07:00

As we all know, Micah James Lugg is leaving for Israel this week, in fact I just said my last goodbyes 2 minutes ago. Anyway I thought I would dedicate this blog to him. I've known you Micah since I was six, I started talking to you, actually talking to you when I was about ten, and now I consider you a good friend. We've had so many laughs, you, Tony, and I, and I have to say that you're one of the funniest guys I know, you are also one of the strongest leaders I know, and I owe a lot of the little maturity that I have to you. I think that everyone will agree with me that you are an excellent role model, for small and.....medium sized kids.(?)

We are all praying for you, for your safety, and that God would use this time to teach you many things. Since there is all that stuff happening over there, I also pray that you would be as careful as can be. We don't want you sent home in an Israeli shoe box.

Here are some verses that I dug up for you.

"In the day of my trouble I call upon You, for You answer me." -Psalms 86:7

"The Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one." -2 Thessalonians 3:3

"But as for you, O man of God flee these (evil) things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, gentleness. Fight the good fight of faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called and about which you made the good confession before many witnesses."
-1 Timothy 6:11-12

Later man!

Joshua 10.

2005-08-20T22:10:00.000-07:00

"And the sun stood still." Simply incredible, the power of our God is so mindblowing that it gives me the chills when I think about it. Many of a time have I read Joshua 10, sometimes I read it when I'm feeling like I won't last, or sometimes just to catch a glimpse of God's awesome power. Every time I read it, it tells me that if God can make the sun stand still, He can overcome the minor or even major problems that I have going on.

In Joshua 10 it starts out, "As soon as Adoni-Zedek, king of Jerusalem, had heard how Joshua captured Ai and had devoted it to destruction, doing to Ai and it's king what he had done to Jericho and it's king, and how the inhabitants of Gibeon had made peace with Israel, and were among them, he (Adoni-Zedek) feared greatly, because Gibeon was a great city, like one of the royal cities, and because it was greater than Ai, and all of its men were warriors. So Adoni-Zedek sent to Hoham king of Hebron, to Piram king of Jarmuth, Japhia king of Lachish, and Debir king of Eglon,saying, 'Come up to me and help me, let us strike Gibeon, for it has made peace with Joshua and the people of Israel.Then the five kings of the Amorites gathered their forces and went up with all their armies and encamped against Gibeon and made war against it."

"So the men of Gibeon sent to Joshua saying 'Don't relax your hand from your servants. Come up to us quickly, save us and help us, for all the kings of the Amorites are against us.' So Joshua went from Gilgal with all his men of war and of valor. And the Lord spoke to him saying,'Do not fear them for In have given them into your hands. Not a man of them should stand before you.'So Joshua came upon them suddenly having marched all night from Gilgal. And the Lord threw them (Amorites) into a panic before Israel, who struck them with a great blow at Gibeon and chased them by the way of the ascent of Beth-Horon, and struck them as far as Azekah and Makkedah. And as they fled before Israel, while they were going down the ascent of Beth-Horon, the Lord threw down large stones from heaven on them as far as Azekah, and they died. There were more who had died from the hailstones than the sons of Israel with the sword."

"And that time Joshua spoke to the Lord in the day when the Lord gave the Amorites over to the sons of Israel, and he said in the sight of Israel,
'Sun, stand still at Gibeon, and moon, in the valley of Aijalon.'
And the sun stood still, and the moon stopped, until the nation took vengeance on their enemies.">"There has been no day like it since, when the Lord obeyed the voice of a man." I think that this story is incredible. It hits my heart when it says, "There has been no day like it, when the Lord obeyed the voice of a man." I think it's awesome.

hahaha!

2005-08-19T23:29:00.000-07:00

SOME FUNNY PICS FOR YA.

Jesus is my HOMEBOY!

2005-08-19T22:41:00.000-07:00

Jesus is my homeboy, I don't think so. I have been seeing these shirts everywhere and all I have to say is, not even close. Obviously the "Christians" who wear this shirt haven't thought about it, (That or they don't have the right perspective on who God is.) Jesus is not my homeboy, He is my Lord and Saviour, the son of God and of man, and my personal refuge. Though mainly secular people wear this shirt, they were selling them at Creation west, one of the biggest (if not the biggest) Christian festivals in the country. Peter Fuler, the lead singer of Newsboys, said, "He isn't my homeboy, He's my Lord." So I have to completely agree with him on that. Brother in Christ, Kramer.

P.S.

DISCUSS!

We got a first a timer over here!

2005-08-19T21:51:00.000-07:00

First timer...

Yes this is my first blog, and I have to say that for the first time in my life I am at a loss for words. Have you ever felt that your social life is the saddest darn thing in the world since the Motley Crue? I fell that way every day so I decided to blog it up. first things first, I love Radiohead, lettermen, and most of all God. I dislike cabbage, mustard, and any movie with the word "Titanic" in the title I play the guitar and read Max Lucado books, Jochua Harris books, and the Bible quite a bit (daily hopefully). I bet that most people who read this will feel 10% dummer, but seriously, this is just the first of many many blogs, so if for some odd reason you are looking forward to them, stay in earshot.